Someone post caught my eye.Almost all the points are link to my life. And the important part of the post I will put it in bold.

Love is the emotion of strong affection and personal attachment.

well, some people say, love is blind or love is painful or love is a war. whereas some say, love is everything. to me, love must involve communication, trust, give and take, understanding, care, sacrifice. some people say i love you, as if it is no big deal. but love is a huge deal. to love is to care, to give hope and to expect. but sometimes, things you expect might not come true. and that is when the disappointment comes in.

can there be love with no expectations? maybe. but whatever it is, when you love someone, or when you tell someone you love them, youre saying, you care for that someone or you know that someone cares for you. and by doing so, you expect the person to be there for you or depend on you. and lets say, if the person isnt there or when she/he find someone else to depend on, can you help but not feel a little bit sad? its funny sometimes that people who are in a relationship, might not be in love. but people who are in love are not in a relationship. to me, relationship leads to expectations, that is why, some people avoid it.

some people build their walls too high and when someone breaks their wall, they fall harder. so eventually, they will build their walls higher.

lets just open our hearts, take a risk and fall in love. if you're waiting for that particular someone and you think that someone is worth chasing after, chase them, what are you waiting for? if your hesitating, let them chase you. if they dont chase you, its okay, leave them. they dont love you enough. ( easy said than done )

and if you dont intend to finish what you started, lets say, a relationship, dont start it. avoid the heartbreaks. if you dont love the person, tell them ( even though it might be hard for them at 1st but its for the best ), at least the person wont be hoping on something that will never happen. and dont make someone fall in love with you, if you dont intend to catch them. if a girl or a guy says, she/he likes you no more than a friend, believe it. dont wait. if he or she says, lets be friends, run. avoid contact if there is still feelings. dont enter the zone, where you might be heartbroken. being friends means he or she can love someone else, start a relationship with someone else, and if you think that you cant handle it, leave. dont stay, dont wait, dont hang around. ( it might be hard, but its possible )

and to the people who wanna wait, tell them youre waiting, but not forever. if you wanna start a relationship or continue the relationship, but you keep on thinking on all the things that might go wrong, trust me, the relationship, will never happen, it will never work out. think off all the good things that might happen, and if it didnt work out, oh well, at least you tried.
8:11 AM By MASHAFIZ

Since it's 11.1.11, I think a post should be posted today.

Sometimes I wonder, what the purpose of life. Yesterday, I met one of it. After a short talk with my parent, I have made a promise to myself that I will take care of them. Since they have made sacrifices to bring me up till where I am today. Now,it's my time to repay them. Maybe happiness for me will come after I fulfill my duties as a son.

My next purpose in life is to give. I am quite angry on how the association treat it's donater. I am donating in order to help the people in need. And they are like un-sincere in helping. When you say the deduction take place between early or end of the month, better keep to the words. I feel like I'm in the wrong for not putting the money in the account when the money have been reserved for nearly a month. Mashafiz,relax yourself. Help people with a sincere and clear heart. Maybe ada hikmah disebaliknya.LOL,I try to make it an all english post but my english and malay sucks i guess. SUCK BIG TIME.hahaha

I have plan some choices for myself to follow.InsyaAllah, by next year I would register myself for my degree course. But not sure which course to select.Have plenty in my mind. And which school should I go to. But the important thing of all,where should I work to save up the money for the course payment. My mind is still wondering.

Last topic of the post, I never wanted for this to happen. It wasn't my intention by any means. I hope everything could be alright like before. If I could rewind the time back.
6:26 AM By MASHAFIZ

After four years, I finally express to her my feelings that been kept all this while. And I knows it myself that now is not the moment as I have gone through the same as what she goes through. But I can't hold on to it forever. Better now than never.

I understand her situation and I certainly not rushing her into one. Studies do come first and this concern about her future. But what I hope is for her to give me a chance to show that I am different and that what make me special.
8:53 AM By MASHAFIZ

To really loved a woman,
you got to know her deep inside?

Is it true?
9:54 AM By MASHAFIZ

Justin Bieber once say this to me...."I need somebody to love"
Me too,hahahaha...Well, last week the whole family went to Seoul Garden. I gave them the treat since I have the voucher but everybody went there as a husband and wife,fiancee or couple...and I the lonely person accompany by the food.Apa nak buat,nasib badan...it's not that I not interested in a relationship...tkde jodoh apa nk buatkn...kuatkn semangat dan tunjukkn senyuman yang manis...but inside me is,kenapa is there the difference of me now and 2006...Why is it so much easier back then...why,why and plenty of why???
5:45 AM By MASHAFIZ

the title if translate in english will meant "what there need to say".
When you're in situation where the wrong word,phrase or sentence will be the end of the situation. Inside your thoughts, you will think twice and deep to construct the perfect line.

And if the moment is right, you say as fast as possible like a bullet train but the problem don't end there. The tone and speed of the pronounciation will be crucial as it seperate the right from wrong.

Still it up to the other party to understand the message being brought across. Hopefully the moment is now...
7:13 AM By MASHAFIZ

Today i brought my laptop to school. I carry it on the left side but when i returned home. My right arm feel so sore and it began to cramp. The shoulders feels so stiff that it's hard to rotate my shoulder. My sister touch my arm and she feel that it's warmer from the left side. Weird,possible since I have behaving differently this past few days. 8 weeks past then out of the blue I slept during class.

Ok, I must confess i sleep at 4 almost the past few days because I don't feel well myself. I felt something amiss. This is certainly not the Mashafiz I used to know. The 24/7 happy go-lucky and smiling chap. I ask some of my friends if they believe in my previous post. Most of them agree that sometimes things you dream might come true. Some of them even say take care of what I will be doing.

The time now is 2 in the morning, it's not that I energetic. I just couldn't sleep. The mind just couldn't control my body anymore. What is the thing that keep distracting me? Please go away, I couldn't take it anymore. Maybe I should just relax and have fun. Hopefully this weekend PC show at SUNTEC, family soccer event and possible LAN-gaming with Zaki can de-stress myself.

It's Official, the latest news have start to kick in and it's time to face reality. :)
10:43 AM By MASHAFIZ

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