singapore have made it to the finals....i hope to be the lucky one to head to the stadium for the finals...juz like wat my class dudes did last 2 yrs...funn awesome man....my whole fem had fem dinner juz now....abt 30 ppl eating as a fem...i so happy....den we all went to my house to c the xtra times....it was so fun....we shout like idiots and cursing at every misses they made.....hahaha....tmr i will werk again....i haven study yet....soon....i really hope not to fail....if i did...i will be ashamed for myself....i am not a gd role model at all....abt my health....i suffering hypertension....dat can cause me throwing up,headache,high fever,fast heartbeat....due to the accident suffer long ago....my knee caps n ankle r giving up on me everyday...i nid to wear ankle guard n knee guard to support them....if not,it will be like a ants bite and i hate it...if i stress,angry,happy my heartbeat will beat very fast....my blood pressure is 140/100.....dats quite high....dat means i got high blood pressure too...so i hope to ask for forgiveness from everyone first.....before everything become too late for me.....let make myself a gd person for u...for those who i have hurt times n times again...sorry...especially to u..........

my wishlist of task for ppl:my fem(collect as many money for them)
:frenz(spend time n treat them)
:np cadets(treat,have a gd training,create a book on a gd leader???)
:myself(have a gd time,find someone whu lurve me,become a gd muslim)
:other(help in any kind of nid that i could)
8:54 AM By MASHAFIZ

hi....back to my weekly post...training hav been slacking for me always...i push sharfina hard on friday....not physically where she fall tergolek2 on the floor...but mentally...she cried....so i sorry for that but disappointed with her performance as a staff sergant....i dun noe spell dat....i will push the rest of dem some other times....this could be a one sided affair where they gain the rank easily....i made some lame moves with peace by the river....but it look cool u noe....i shld blog again later abt my health....rite now its a little bit over the max alredy...nid to go out but paint for the house....ka-mate ora(is it death or life)
5:10 PM By MASHAFIZ

exam coming.....i hope not to fail....if not repeat my year 1 again....ytd i werk...i do cashier for the second time in my 1 year of werking there....i satisfy wif myself...i got quite few number of upsize.....i glad its over....whu noes if got chance i will be betta....gotta burn midnite oil...izzit correct...mug until i burn everything down....rain is so hot....ok i not gay...but he got the moves like jt....he the asian sexyback man....ok i more hotter....in million years times.....npcc,here i come....hope got speech day parade
4:36 AM By MASHAFIZ

we recently have training this week.the first training of the year....wed we did arm drill....den fri we had p.o.p parade....i was the parade commander....although it was kacang putih....but i feel like a gd thing....after den i blanja some of my np cadet to McD.....so kecoh n happening....on tues we hav cca openhouse....everything went well...including the fancy drill....i goin to be the best ci in ctnpcc history....may i grow them to b a betta leader tmr....today went to ngee ann openhouse wif shar,rahil,liyana,sini,farhanna,shafiee.....aku nie pandai2 je...kenal bdk yg last 2 pun tk....i am the lamest dere.....tk sempat amek free gift...amek keropok,gula,cokelat....popcorn....ape2 free kat sana,nmpk lah muka aku...terpampa saru ngee ann...bdk cheapskate.....hahaha....den we separate...i follow rahil n liyana to jp....kat sana pun kita mcm bdk beloh.....we ate delifrance.....liyana fish was cold den she complaint....see,she so fussy.....my chicken sandwiches was cold....kita mcm bdk miskin ar...agi2 aku....kluar kn duit dulu make sur kena cukup....sampai berterabuh duit syiling....den beli puff....tk tau nk caya ke tk...kalau takeaway $1 but mkn kat sana $2.50....klaka kn....aku terangjang muka manager tu baru tau.....den we chat den lepak mcm bdk tk tentu arah mkn puff....den alek.....klaka gila ar nari....amek byk benda free....kacau org....agi2 liyana....hehehe....jaga kau....fri knock it down....
6:33 AM By MASHAFIZ

today hav cca open house meeting...the first time i went to the skool.....it was a messy place....i went berserk like wat liyana say.....i dun know how to control and vent my anger properly....i so sorry to all of u whu attend the meeting.....sorry to syarifah bcoz i throw the proposal and it might hit u....the proposal was not to the standard as u all are at the peak at the moment....with that kind of proposal...u would sure be kick in the ass in the real world...luckily it was not sir kiwi.....let it be a learning lesson towards us and make a ctnpcc the best and the precious memories to rmbr.....overall i c an improvement in the later part of the meeting....i hope u all could benefit from doing this....it always a learning journey bcoz u won't stop even u r old....i was really2 like shit today.....i hate myself.....how could i do this to u all....i shld shot myself in the head....went to eat den meet farhanna...decided to follow her to sp openhouse......i felt like regret to take electronics,computer,communication....i felt like taking marinetime engineering where more jobs are needed right now.....shld i change and dat means i would be a first yrs graduate again....izzit a wise choice or a bad one from me....still thinking....overall i dissapoint wif myself today for not solving the problem wif soft approached.....i hav failed....
9:51 AM By MASHAFIZ

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